Grief Can Ambush - Day 28

Grief Can Ambush
Day 28

No matter how long it has been, you still carry a portion of your grief with you. Emotions you already dealt  with come flooding back at the most unexpected times. Grief's timing is not your timing.

Elisabeth Elliot says, "One day after my husband died, I was in the grocery store picking up the things that I needed, throwing them into my basket, and suddenly I found myself absolutely shaking with sobs. Fortunately, there was no one else in that particular aisle. I couldn't explain it. Grief does strange things to you at times."

But God holds the master plan for your life. He is never surprised. Although you cannot know the details of the plan, you can know and walk with the Master Planner.

"I trust in you, O LORD; I say, 'You are my God.' My times are in your hands; deliver me from my enemies and from those who pursue me" (Psalm 31:14-15).

God, I do not understand what is going on with me, but I trust that You do. Amen

~ Ambush. It is a word that I didn't recognize until I started grief share. I have experienced many ambushes, but never put a name to it. I think that now that I am moving forward in my healing that I am better equipped to handle those ambush moments. There will be songs that remind me of my mom and sister that will play on the radio. I don't want to forget them, I just need to be able to hear the songs and not cry because they remind me of them. I hear someone say something that my sister would say and I want to be happy about it not start to cry because she isn't here. It is just an acknowledgement of how far I have come and how far I still need to go in my journey.